I look cute today, but it wasn’t always like this. My real mum was raped and I’m a product of that rape. My mother was a heroin addict and when I was born I had withdrawal symptoms and had to go through detox. My mother did the best she could for me, but when I was about 3 or 4 years old she couldn’t handle me and her addiction and she left me in a phone box and the police found me and I was fostered out.
My foster mum and dad drank hard and were always drunk. I was beaten and raped by both of them and told that I was a waste of air when I was in their so called ‘care’. My foster brother ran away and I was on my own to handle what was going on. My foster dad nearly killed me when I was 11 years old, I learned to hate people from a young age, and when I was 13 I nearly killed my foster dad. I was then taken to my foster brothers place by the police, it was a house with a big fence with a bikies flag standing tall with bandidos aust. m/c club on it, the police said to each other “this kid dosn’t stand a chance here,” the police just said “good luck” as they drove off.
I met my foster brother there and a whole lot of other people with patches on the back of their shirts and jackets and my brother had one on too. I grew up as a biker and learnt how to hate and use weapons knives and guns and all those toys. I got my first bike when I was 14 years old a triumph tiger. When I was 17 and a half I got put in jail. It was in 1984, the bandidos had a shoot out at the Milperra pub with a rival outlaw bikie club. I got stabbed 6 times in my belly, sliced with a sword on my arm and my brother was shot and killed , I did 8 yrs in jail for that (Tony took revenge on his brother's killer), but the pain of the way my life was will live in my memory forever.
All through this I lived to die and I really didn’t know any other way. Then I had an idea I needed to change a few things in my life so I went to detox to get off drugs and alcohol. Then I needed to find a place to do the rest of the changing, I’m now at “Fishers of Men” at Springwood. I now have the life I want to head for. I can stand with Christ and with his patch in my heart. Where anger and hatred and revenge was and a heart of stone I now have a heart of flesh. I want to be the best I can for my Lord Jesus and I pray for the people that nearly took me out and I pray for the people that killed my brother. I can now stand tall and know that Christ is on my side and every step I walk is with him and through him. I’m alive for a reason to help other people that others wouldn’t touch with a 10 foot pole. Just as Christs’ hands reach out for me my hands reach out for others. I’m forgiven so I can forgive. The battle line was drawn even before I got going. I’m a warrior for Christ Amen.
Tony singing a song he wrote - Jesus Knows
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